Pools

Why do I believe in soulmates?

Sometimes I feel so FUCKING HOPELESS!

What the fuck am I doing?

Why do I do this to myself?

Putting myself through all this shit,

FOR WHAT?! That too all by myself

What will I get out of this?

I know I made a decision then, thinking it was for the best of me

I guess I have to trust myself  

But I guess I’m just looking for reassurance

But they look at me with so much pity

What the fuck are THEY SORRY FOR?!?

It was my decision and I am living with it

Their eyes

                       Brown and black

                                                         Look like pools of sadness

They seem to be sad for me.

But it just confuses me.

Because I'm not sad...

... I don't think I have a reason to be.

So why is it that my voice cracked?
Why was there a lump in my throat?
Why did they touch my face as if they had lost someone they loved the most ?
Why do they seem to mourn for me while I'm still alive?


Do they think i'm a failure?



Do they think I'm undeserving?



Their eyes baffle me.

















I hate this....