Begging

It's a lie

I said that she was there

But I

A fool

Lead you all to believe that I had someone

Someone who understands

I don't

I'm alone

I'm alone when I study through the night

I'm alone when I get to class early

I'm alone when I sit in my room with my thoughts haunting me

My thought haunt me all the time

And you tell me to put it aside

..

Do you even know what it means to 'haunt'?

This is not The Canterville Ghost who can just ignore

It lurks all the time

And when I'm alone it attacks me

With everything unsaid to me

And anything I never heard

It controls me

It controls me because I would do anything for it to go away

It likes to boil out of my face

It likes to make me shiver even in the heat

So I beg

Like many of you

To either leave me alone

Or

To put me out of my misery