Why do my parents tell me not to cry ?
It is completely alright if my little sister cried
Heck, they gave her love when she cried
But,
When tears start forming in my eyes
And they can hear the emotion in my voice
As I try my best to speak through it
They tell me not to cry
I shout at them
"What is so wrong about crying ?!
If I'm crying then I can't help it.
It's an emotion.
I can't stop it."
I want to shout further
"Would you rather have me harm myself than cry ?
Would you rather I held it in and let it eat me up inside ?
Because that's what I did as a child
AND IT DID NOT WORK OUT FOR ME!!"
But I don't
What holds me back ?
Why don't they understand ?
Why is it so difficult to understand that crying is okay ?
Why is it so difficult for them to see that my studies is not the only thing I am ?
Yes it may play a role in my future
But they make me feel like IT is my future.
Somewhere deep inside
A small part of me believe that it isn't everything
But right now,
I can't even tell what I'm feeling
This is so right, but I've always put blame on education when such incidents happen, education of how to give comfort to children, of how treat them when you don't understand them (which is likely, empathy across such a large age gap is a rarity)
ReplyDeleteNot just education my friend, but awareness. This is why we need feminism. We need to help people understand that it is not okay to just accept the situation that they are in. The point of this post was to say that it is okay to cry.
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