bruh idk

I do not have big words 

to express myself

but there is a reality to romance

there is so much distortion in a young perception of it

i'm not just talking about the expectations from a partner 

but the fact that everyone experiences it differently 

there is a fear that sets in

when we find out that it is not all what we thought out that it would be

in friendships

in romances

in family

I have a place where i come home to rest 

but my house is becoming scarce

as i grow bigger 

my emotions aren't mine only

they are shared by those around me 

like magnets, repulsion and attractions happen.

there was once a happy realisation 

my life needs more than a couple of sittings to be told

but now it seems like such a misery 

a five course meal of stories 

when all i want is a fast food solution to my problems

no longer want to understand or be understood

no longer want to care or be cared for 

all because people will only understand what they want to 

and because caring is understood as wanting pity

so we become lonely