I do not have big words
to express myself
but there is a reality to romance
there is so much distortion in a young perception of it
i'm not just talking about the expectations from a partner
but the fact that everyone experiences it differently
there is a fear that sets in
when we find out that it is not all what we thought out that it would be
in friendships
in romances
in family
I have a place where i come home to rest
but my house is becoming scarce
as i grow bigger
my emotions aren't mine only
they are shared by those around me
like magnets, repulsion and attractions happen.
there was once a happy realisation
my life needs more than a couple of sittings to be told
but now it seems like such a misery
a five course meal of stories
when all i want is a fast food solution to my problems
no longer want to understand or be understood
no longer want to care or be cared for
all because people will only understand what they want to
and because caring is understood as wanting pity
so we become lonely
