Mourn

 I love you

I love you

I love you

I wish I could say it again and again to you
I wish you would understand the intensity every time I said it
I wish I could hold you at night
I keep dreaming about it

About holding you

and wondering

what if I didn't wait for you

what if I had just kissed you

Was it wrong for me to wait for you?

I knew that I missed you

but after meeting you

I mourn the person I knew

I mourn for the love that I couldn't share with you

not because it hurts me but because I know I am too good for you

Sometimes you fall in love with people

and when that happens- you hope that all the good things happen to them

at that moment you don't realise that you are a good thing that happened to them

you don't until they're gone

and you cry with your knees tucked under your chin

missing them

because you needed this more than they do.