lately
i've been
thinking
about calling you
but my stomach dissolves in itself
i
think of calling you up
"let us pretend, nothing bad ever happened"
i'd tell you about my day and how much i missed you
(you'd tell me about yours and how much you missed me)
i'd tell you about how i waited for you for so long
(i can't imagine what you would say to that)
i'm still not past it
and i dream of lengthy conversations
all over again
it sounds like i want to fall in love with you again
but you're not the same
neither am i
so do i miss you or do i miss
the feeling
of
being in love?
